Monday, November 19, 2012
Saturday was not easy
Kasha and I walked back to her trailer. With each step we felt the heaviness of the day but I promised her I would be back soon after grabbing a tiny bite of something, put on warmer clothes and swallow three more Advil... Through the night we snuggled and just remained present. It was hard not to think of our younger days and better health. It is impossible to sleep with her because despite her not feeling well she still works. Reminds me of me... No matter what I get up and work even when I don't feel like I can put one foot down I just do it... I have never regretted a single day since I started this farm and no matter what life has given me I understand this is where I was meant to be.
There are much more work to be done on this sad project. Tomorrow I will be digging more, picking out rocks to cover the grave and dig deeper in the memories that have created my life here. I sure hope the Advil hold out!