Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Waves Goodbye 2013 and Hello 2014
Hours away from kicking 2013 to the curb and greeting 2014 in with open arms. It is no secret except to those who were not listening that 2013 was a VERY VERY hard year for this gal - heck let's be honest it kicked my butt and mopped the floor with me but I am not dead and buried. I have done my best which in many respects was not enough and then in other issues I managed to move mountains.
I do not wish to give 2013 one more moment of my time and rather choose to look foreword to a NEW YEAR, NEW ADVENTURE and NO BOUNDARIES.
This last year has opened my eyes to the fact that I have given far too much of my time to folks who only take and never give. I have stood still and stopping reaching for my highest good thinking that other's deserved to be put first in all things. Somewhere over time I completely lost sight to put myself on the to do list - NO MORE..
I lost many dear and old friends this last year but the passing of my Kasha almost was my last stand. I sat next to her grave and could not find a reason to keep going and then I remembered - I have NEVER in my life given up, NEVER ran away from hard times and this was really going to be a battle. I am willing to go down but not without giving it my all.
LETTING GO is not something I know or do but I am in complete trust and understanding that I am supported by the universe and by many kind folks. I saw this week just how many souls have stepped up to assist me financially and how many have offered words of support, love and even places to come and rest. I was overwhelmed by the fact that so many understood just how much this farm and the souls I shared it with means to me and you cried with me over the changes that face me now. I also saw how to many my loss was their gain for all types of reasons but again I do not wish to spend time given them words to this page.
So 2014 is going to be full of changes for this gal. Those who know me you understand how change is only happening when I can control every inch of it, I have planned it out every move and I know the answers before any question is ever asked. WELL NOT THIS TIME. I am going to work on going with the flow, letting others help me even if they don't do it my way, breathe through the scary parts and believe all this is for my higher good. I know it sounds like one of those self help books about farting rainbows in a hail storm but thess things I know to be true because they are exactly what got me to this farm and this life 17 years ago and that was the best ride so far... I can't wait to see what I create next.
I hope you all will follow along with my new life - a rebirth for this gal. Some things I will keep - some things I have already kicked to the curb. Some folks will be given a wave goodbye while I wave with both hands to new lands and faces. I wish for all who read this to make 2014 a new adventure in some way - it can be small or it can be as big as what I am facing but please share with me what is going on - how can we grow and learn if we do not share???
I am also going to be honest with you all - I have enjoyed sharing my world with you but I admit I am tired of feeling like I am talking to a blank wall. I know that many of you read my words and you share your thoughts but I have many many more who read and never write a word. I would love to just know what you are thinking - you do not have to agree, disagree or some such thing but I really have to wonder why I do this if it does not connect with someone. So PLEASE let me know if this should even continue because I talk to myself enough - typing to myself is just a waste of finger action.
Love and Light and HAPPY NEW YEAR from the soon to be gone Larkspur Funny Farm