Sunday she was very sad and not wanting to join in with the other girls. I decided both of us needed to get out in the fresh cold air and walk a bit. So I asked her to join me in a walk around the pasture and some heart to heart conversation. For those who think animals do not understand - Well, think again. As we walked she spoke (actual sounds) in goat about her sadness and loss. I listened to every sound she made, touched her with each sound and gave her soft gentle feedback. She would look up at me with those sad eyes and I look back with all my heart and soul.
Both of us know of loss and the pain it causes but I also know you can come out the other side stronger. It is hard to believe that when you are going thru it but in time all will heal. Not to say we forget but it does become easier. You see 14 years ago this very day my husband crumbled to the floor as a blood vessel broke in his brain. Three days later he was removed from all machines and he passed away. There is a part of me who remembers it like it was just yesturday. When I put that aside the rest of me realizes I have grown into a much stronger women, mother and now a caretaker of wonderful creatures.
So as we finished our walk around the pasture we went back to her pen, rested in the warm straw and she took a nap while I stroked her head. The other girls settled in for a nap as well - What a life I lead! Who would have believed out of my loss and sorry 14 years ago I would be in this whole different world... Change is not always what we want, it can be very painful but with change comes new growth, experiences and YES - a wonderous adventure.