Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Mystery of Opal's Death - Tears will not stop!

At lunchtime when I went to give the bottle kids their bottles I found next to the door of the barn Opal.....

I have no idea what happened...
This morning they kids where all out in the backyard eating having a wonderful morning. In fact, Opal did not want to come into the barn when everyone else was done eating. I had to pick her up and carry her into the barn - snuggling all the way and then was morning nap time for the wee one's. Nothing out of the ordinary..

My heart just broke!! This little girl has come through so much and was such a kind soul. She lived for snugs and was always kind to the bottle kids even when they would gang up on her... She gave her mother a reason to get up on her feet and walk on a broken leg. My God this just is not fair. Olivia is sitting in the barn crying but after sitting with her for a while my heart just could not take it anymore.

I thought maybe putting my heart ache into words would help but now I wonder if I should just hit delete. I have been doing this for too many years and have faced this pain so many times - I thought the next one I would have to bury was Sugar not my sweet Wee One Opal... I think I am done with the heart ache.

Thank you for letting me share this sorrow with you. I know I was blessed to have her in my life for the past four months but no matter how I talk to myself about her passing my heart is still in pieces.

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss, after finding your blog I feel like I am right along with you and your animals so my heart aches too.
Jalia in Pueblo

Candy C. said...

Oh Grace! I am so sorry! Know that you and all your critters are in my thoughts! Go ahead and cry!

larkspur funny farm said...

Jalia and Candy thank you so much for your kindness - I never know if I should share this part of my farm life but I feel that if I only shared the good times I would not be giving my all to those who read it.

I think a strong drink will have to be tonight. Long mediation and prayers as well.

Tribal Horse Designs said...

I am so sorry grace !!!!!!!!!! (((hugs))

Lisa said...

Grace, I'm so, so sorry for you and Olivia to have to bear such a terrible tragedy. Anyone who has ever known and loved animals as members of their family knows all too well the pain of your heartache. Rest in peace sweet Opal.

Jane said...

I am deeply sorry. You have had to endure way to much this year. So sorry.

Moobie Grace said...

I'm sorry...

larkspur funny farm said...

Thank you so much ladies - just as I was weeping around I got hit with a hail storm that last an hour and the hail was bigger then quarters - THIS IS A SUCKY DAY!!!!

Aunt Jenny said...

Oh Grace....I hate when you lose such a sweet little soul...I ache for you. Dang. I wish I were closer so I could help. Dang.

larkspur funny farm said...

Jenny you help by just being you... Hit tonight with three hail storms and now under a Tornado watch - I want a big do over for today...

monica said...

Grace, I am so very sorry to hear about Opal! My heart is with you right now and my prayers too! If i were closer I would come and sit with you! My prayers are with you and my dear Olivia!
God Bless you both!
((((((HUGS))))))

larkspur funny farm said...

Thank you so much Monica - I am sorry I missed the phone call. In the basement doing duck and cover... Your voice was a comfort when I heard it in the middle of the night.. Staying in prayers today - big mess to clean up and more storms coming this afternoon.
Worn and broken.

Nicole said...

i'm so sorry for your loss. how sad :(. i hope sweet opal is in a heaven filled with sweet pristine pastures and grasses, and many belly rubs. i'm sure you're whole family is missing her very much. <3

larkspur funny farm said...

Thank you so much Nicole.. Today Olivia decided to boss around the bottle kids. I think it kept her mind of her own loss and gave her purpose... I know that she is in a great place and someday I wil be with them all.